“And Caleb stilled the people before Moses, and said, ‘Let us go up at once, and possess it; for we are well able to overcome it.’ But the men that went up with him said, ‘We be not able to go up against the people; for they are stronger than we.'” (Numbers 13:30, 31)
When I think of the certainty of the progression of my illness, it overwhelms me and threatens to send me into an anxiety attack. Every year I observe my body degenerating because of my disease. At times, I look at my future with only negative thoughts. What does this new year hold for me? What health problems will I have to endure?
In the above portion of Scripture, Caleb and Joshua were the only two out of 12 men who were positive about their future in going to the land of Canaan, because they knew God could overcome any obstacle. But the other 10 men’s negative thoughts were what influenced the majority of the Israelites.
Negativity will only drain our energy and any happiness. If you plant a seed of negativity in your own mind, what will the harvest be? It is emotionally toxic.
When truly you submit your future to God, you won’t feed the negativity. The degree of our negativity represents our lack of submission to what God wants to accomplish in our life. When you give hold to those negative thoughts, you are denying God’s ability to take care of you, just like the Israelites in the above passage.
Although those negative thoughts may still creep up in my mind, I just do my best to not give them any substance. My positive thoughts for the year are that I will do my best to be faithful and serve Him the best I am able to. If God allows something to physically prevent me from doing some of the work I do now, I just need to trust Him, that He knows what is best for my life. He has a purpose for everything, and he will eventually bring me to Canaan.