Do you have a desire to find out what your calling is? There will doubtless be obstacles to your fulfilling His plan, and it may look impossible, but don’t listen to the voice of doubt. When God directed Joshua to lead the Israelites to cross the Jordan River (Joshua 3), it didn’t seem physically possible. They could not have just waded across the river. But when God directs, He also provides a way. God told them that when the priests carrying the ark of the covenant stepped in the river, He would hold back the water and they would be able to cross on a dry riverbed. But they had to do what He directed, take that first step and get their feet wet. It was a step of faith, and we have to take that same first step of faith when God is telling us to do something and get our feet wet.
Perhaps you could pray for God to use you through your illness or disability. We obviously do not want the illness and pain, so at times we put all of our energy into getting rid of the discomfort. We seek out alternative medicine, rely on conventional medicine, ask advice from people who have been there, go to counseling with a pastor, everything but really get a truly intimate relationship with God and asking Him what He wants to accomplish in our lives. I’m not saying you should just give up and not even try to get better. Use the resources God has given you, but make sure you also ask Him what He has in mind for your life and find out how this can work for good. Talk to Him like a friend, tell him about all your hurts. He is the only friend who won’t get sick of hearing all about it every day.
I have a dear person who I love that I talk to on the phone. But when I say that, I don’t really do all that much talking. I can hardly get a word in, and actually have to interrupt just to be able to add anything to the conversation. Sometimes we are that person to God. We do all the talking, and He can hardly get a word in. Then He actually has to interrupt our lives just to get our attention. When you pray, do you talk nonstop without listening? Make sure you are listening to what He has to say to you about what He has in mind for your life. As in Susannah Spurgeon’s case, God put a burden on her heart for the poor preachers of England. In Joni Eareckson Tada’s case, He gave her the idea of helping others around the world with wheelchairs. Listen to Him speaking to you. It may come in the form of a burden on your heart for some ministry. He also speaks to His own. Isaiah 30, verse 21 tells us just that, “And thine ears shall hear a word behind thee, saying, This is the way, walk ye in it, when ye turn to the right hand, and when ye turn to the left.” It is also evident in John 10:27, “My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me.” Do you hear His voice? If not, try getting alone with Him, get away from all distractions, put everything on hold and ask Him specifically for an answer. He will speak to your heart.