God wants to use what seems to be bad and turn it into something good. It is one of His specialties. Satan would like to see nothing good come out of your illness at all. It all depends on you. If you cooperate with God, it can become beneficial to both you and those around you. If you give in to the devil, which is the easier road, it will most likely just become more and more of a burden. Through all of your pain and trials, you have the resources to become a seasoned veteran of the Christian faith, able to help those who have just entered the battle.
Take a look at Matthew 26:53, which says, “Thinkest thou that I cannot now pray to my Father, and He shall presently give me more than twelve legions of angels?” Have you ever thought about Jesus in this situation? He could have easily gotten out of dying on the cross, and He knew He had that power. As He said, He could have prayed to His Father who would have sent more than twelve legions of angels if He had asked for them. In numbers, a legion in the Roman army consisted of 3000 to 6000 soldiers, so that would equal 36,000 to 72,000 angels, and Jesus knew He could get that kind of help immediately anytime He wanted it. It was a very difficult time for Him emotionally. Just how difficult is expressed in verse 38 of that chapter, “Then saith He unto them, ‘My soul is exceeding sorrowful, even unto death.'” Have you ever been so sorrowful you just didn’t feel like you could live any longer? Jesus has shared that same feeling with you! He knows what you are going through. Yet He had the power all along to stop His suffering from happening. Take a minute to think of what you would do right now if you had that kind of power. Would you immediately put an end to your own suffering, or would you comply with what God had planned for you? Jesus Himself trusted the sovereignty of God the Father. He knew that ultimately His suffering would result in something valuable, and He actually had to restrain Himself and not use that power, but chose instead to submit to what His Father wanted. It wasn’t easy, even for Him. It is especially hard for us when we don’t know the outcome, or how it can possibly work out for good. But you have to remember that God will use it mightily if you let Him!